It is simply amazing how quickly time flys. One moment we are in the hospital expecting everything in our lives to change dramaticaly with the arrival of one little boy. That little boy not only changes our life but opens our eyes to so many possibilities. We get comfortable with the way our life has changed...(you know after those first couple of months of "are we doing this right??") Sleepless nights, engorgement from an impossible nurser, and all of the trials and tribulations seem small compared to the end result, a happy smiling child.
So, then we figure that we are ready to bring on baby number two. I mean if we can handle this little bitty thing, why not another? Plus, with my Mother-In-Laws failing health we wanted to continue to bless her with more grandchildren as these little ones gave her the strenght to fight for her life. Unfortunately she passed away in June of 2004 before we conceived our second child.
With the happiness of the second pregnancy and the sadness at the loss of our beloved "Maam", we began to settle into the fact that our life was going to change dramatically again. But life dealt us a whole new change...a miscarriage. With heavy hearts, and a lot of prayer with close family and friends, we discovered just how much we both wanted to continue trying to grow our family. Plus, it was a comfort to us to know that our daughter was up in heaven with her Meme. This loss strengthened us to try again and bring forth more children into our family.
So, we tried again...and were blessed on the 4th of July with our newest bundle of energy...another boy. Needless to say, we've had our hands full. Being dealt with Ethan's Celiac diagnosis, and subsequent eating issues has been difficult at best. But every night when I go in to kiss that little sleeping head goodnight, I reflect on the millions of times during the day when he told me he loved me, or gave me a hug for no reason. I say a little prayer of protection, kiss him good night, and ask God for another day in Paradise...knowing that we will have another day with more trials and tribulations, but more importantly it will be another day full of kisses, hugs and I love yous!
So, you say, where exactly is she going with this?? Well, we are here to tell the world we are happily expecting our lives to change again with the expected arrival of Baby Ouellette (known to some as Bumby...don't ask) sometime in January!! We couldn't be happier. Yes, our lives are crazy, tiring, and some days VERY trying...but we both agreed that God knows what we can and can't handle, and apparently He has a lot of faith and trust in us. So, why not let Him decide how many children we are to have as well as all that comes along with them.
We don't know where life will lead us. We don't know how long we are here. But, what we do know is that we need to make the most of our time, and we both want our children to be part of a large family who will be able to help take care of each other, support each other and above all love each other through all of their day's.
My children on earth will never know who their Meme was, while my child who has gone to heaven sits in her lap and keeps her company. But we are determined to keep her memory alive by showing them the ways she cared for and loved her family before she died.
Just look at the smile on her husbands face as he holds his two grandkids. Tell me that isn't reason enough to have more children!